Painful Dreams
I start to feel completely normal again. Every now and then the incision causes a little bit of trouble if I walk for longer stretches. Last night I had a dream about pain under my armpit which worries me, but I cannot tell whether it is only part of the dream or whether the pain is real. I have not experienced the pain during the day yet so it might just be a dream. I earlier had also a dream that my left testicle has moved up to my groins and that I need to push it back down, aaahhh. How painful. I remember that was the case with my right testicle because it was undescended when I was born. Supposedly those undescended testicles have a higher chance of getting a tumor than the ones that have desceneded on their own.
Anyway I need to keep my head busy in order for these nightmares to disappear. I have to move on. I started a new blog called WAITING FOR CHEMO I’ll be writing an entry every day until the chemo therapy is over and I moved back into my old appartment in New York which will be in approximately 6 weeks. Well who knows maybe earlier. The second dosis of chemotherapy is coming up in six days. I’ll be enjoying my life without poison until then.
Tags: chemotherapy, paraplatin, recovering, testicular cancer
