Dear Testicular Cancer

I haven’t posted much in the last week. I guess I’ve been able to start focusing on other things than the treatment and cancer, which is very good. My mind starts to function again on a more normal level. I am more relaxed and I don’t freak out about every little pain I feel. In fact I haven’t even felt the tiny infection in my left testicle anymore. Vitamins A,B, C and E, Isoflavones, Q10 as well as a ton of green tea have become my daily companions. I definitely don’t want to give cancer another chance. I have also started to exercise once a day on the bicycle for 10 to 15 minutes. I’ll move up slowly since I’m quite out of shape as I’ve noticed.

Round two of chemo has gone by like a breeze. The first four days were as expected a little bit unfomfortable with flu-like symptoms, but definitely not as bad as the first round. The doctor has prescribed me some laxative which has helped a great deal with the constipation. It helps to know how the body will react. I again drank tea and water until I could not bare the taste of water anymore then I switched to apple juice and soy milk. Also rinsing my mouth with warm salt water helped with the taste a little bit. Supposedly it’s also good to strengthen the gums.

I am now in the second week. My blood results after week one were good. One more doctor visit and I will head back to New York. I will take things slowly but I have to start getting back into life. I have already my first job lined up with an old school friend in New York. I have not told him anything about the past few weeks. I don’t think I will.

I start to feel completely normal again. Every now and then the incision causes a little bit of trouble if I walk for longer stretches. Last night I had a dream about pain under my armpit which worries me, but I cannot tell whether it is only part of the dream or whether the pain is real. I have not experienced the pain during the day yet so it might just be a dream. I earlier had also a dream that my left testicle has moved up to my groins and that I need to push it back down, aaahhh. How painful. I remember that was the case with my right testicle because it was undescended when I was born. Supposedly those undescended testicles have a higher chance of getting a tumor than the ones that have desceneded on their own.

Anyway I need to keep my head busy in order for these nightmares to disappear. I have to move on. I started a new blog called WAITING FOR CHEMO I’ll be writing an entry every day until the chemo therapy is over and I moved back into my old appartment in New York which will be in approximately 6 weeks. Well who knows maybe earlier. The second dosis of chemotherapy is coming up in six days. I’ll be enjoying my life without poison until then.

It’s roughly one week since the first dosis of paraplatin. All the sideffects seem to be over. It took about seven days for the constipation to disappear. The muscle pain vanished after three days. I was tired for roughly one day. No nausea whatsoever. But yes a major constipation.

I got my blood checked and everything looks fine. I start to feel like a human being again. Walking is also going practically like before. I am still trying to walk carefully but I didn’t feel anything major in about 2 weeks and I have walked about 3 or 4 kilometers a day.