Dear Testicular Cancer

Carboplatin injection

I got the first dosis of paraplatin three days ago. I went up to the hospital with my girlfriend at around 9am. The doctor said I wouldn’t feel anything and I should not prepare anything of any sort. They gave me some anti-nausea medicine and then I had to wait for an hour for the drug to kick in. Then I walked into a room with a bunch of beds with people in them getting their chemo. The last one in the row was mine. A nurse hooked my arm up to the IV bags with more anti nausea drugs and also the paraplatin. The needle barely hurt. The whole process took about one hour then the bags were empty. Two old elder men in the beds next to mine were talking about getting a few beers after the chemo. Seems like they are regulars at this place.

Back home I started to feel tired, so I took a little nap after a very rich lunch. When I woke up I started to feel a slight muscle pain, similar to flu symptoms. I was able to sleep nevertheless. Then it started… not the nausea, as it turns out they gave me enough of those anti nausea pills, but no one mentioned the constipation. I was never so full of shit. I could barely sit. My father got me some laxative. I stuck up 3 dosis of that stuff up my rear end and 2 dosis of the liquid version through the mouth. After 8 hours of tremendous asshole pain I finally was able to extract some junk.

They really could have warned me. Next time I will only eat vegetables and fruits.

The probability that the removal of the testical has healed me completely is about 80-90%. Another doctor gave me a relapse rate of 70% and 80% because of the size of the tumor being slightly larger than average. It’s all statistics anyway and it boils down to whether I’m a half full or a half empty kind of person:

Treatment of no treatment ?

I was given two options for post surgery treatments to lower the relapse rate to ~5%:

Option 1) 10 Days of Radiation Therapy or

Option 2) Chemo Therapy : 2 Dosis 700mg Carboplatin (=Paraplatin)

Interesting Video found on google talking about the chemotherapy option

[...]the latest research shows an early stage of one type of cancer—seminoma–can respond just as well to a single dose of chemotherapy after surgery, rather than needing a three week course of radiation therapy. (source: www.empowereddoctor.com)

Honestly I am a bit overwhelmed with having to make this decision. I am worried about exposing my body to toxic medicine that could potentially cause more damage. On the other hand I am not convinced that the tumor has not spread a little bit, it has been in there for quite a while after all…

I signed up with this online support group:

TC NET Support

I have received great help and mental support from them. I highly recommend signing up (free) and telling your story.

I have met with the radiotherapy specialist. The options for post surgery treatments of testicular cancer are all a little confusing and irritating right now. Every option seems to affect the probability of a reoccurence of the tumor and at the same time also the probability of causing another, secondary type of cancer further down the road (10-15 years from now). I will post more once my clears up a little and I have done more research.