Dear Testicular Cancer

Chemotherapy Round Two

admin — Wed, 24 May 2006 22:33:48 +0000

I haven’t posted much in the last week. I guess I’ve been able to start focusing on other things than the treatment and cancer, which is very good. My mind starts to function again on a more normal level. I am more relaxed and I don’t freak out about every little pain I feel. In fact I haven’t even felt the tiny infection in my left testicle anymore. Vitamins A,B, C and E, Isoflavones, Q10 as well as a ton of green tea have become my daily companions. I definitely don’t want to give cancer another chance. I have also started to exercise once a day on the bicycle for 10 to 15 minutes. I’ll move up slowly since I’m quite out of shape as I’ve noticed.

Round two of chemo has gone by like a breeze. The first four days were as expected a little bit unfomfortable with flu-like symptoms, but definitely not as bad as the first round. The doctor has prescribed me some laxative which has helped a great deal with the constipation. It helps to know how the body will react. I again drank tea and water until I could not bare the taste of water anymore then I switched to apple juice and soy milk. Also rinsing my mouth with warm salt water helped with the taste a little bit. Supposedly it’s also good to strengthen the gums.

I am now in the second week. My blood results after week one were good. One more doctor visit and I will head back to New York. I will take things slowly but I have to start getting back into life. I have already my first job lined up with an old school friend in New York. I have not told him anything about the past few weeks. I don’t think I will.

Painful Dreams

admin — Sat, 13 May 2006 01:29:55 +0000

I start to feel completely normal again. Every now and then the incision causes a little bit of trouble if I walk for longer stretches. Last night I had a dream about pain under my armpit which worries me, but I cannot tell whether it is only part of the dream or whether the pain is real. I have not experienced the pain during the day yet so it might just be a dream. I earlier had also a dream that my left testicle has moved up to my groins and that I need to push it back down, aaahhh. How painful. I remember that was the case with my right testicle because it was undescended when I was born. Supposedly those undescended testicles have a higher chance of getting a tumor than the ones that have desceneded on their own.

Anyway I need to keep my head busy in order for these nightmares to disappear. I have to move on. I started a new blog called WAITING FOR CHEMO I’ll be writing an entry every day until the chemo therapy is over and I moved back into my old appartment in New York which will be in approximately 6 weeks. Well who knows maybe earlier. The second dosis of chemotherapy is coming up in six days. I’ll be enjoying my life without poison until then.

Recovering From Round One

admin — Mon, 08 May 2006 08:46:44 +0000

It’s roughly one week since the first dosis of paraplatin. All the sideffects seem to be over. It took about seven days for the constipation to disappear. The muscle pain vanished after three days. I was tired for roughly one day. No nausea whatsoever. But yes a major constipation.

I got my blood checked and everything looks fine. I start to feel like a human being again. Walking is also going practically like before. I am still trying to walk carefully but I didn’t feel anything major in about 2 weeks and I have walked about 3 or 4 kilometers a day.

Chemo Round One

admin — Mon, 01 May 2006 20:04:04 +0000

Carboplatin injection

I got the first dosis of paraplatin three days ago. I went up to the hospital with my girlfriend at around 9am. The doctor said I wouldn’t feel anything and I should not prepare anything of any sort. They gave me some anti-nausea medicine and then I had to wait for an hour for the drug to kick in. Then I walked into a room with a bunch of beds with people in them getting their chemo. The last one in the row was mine. A nurse hooked my arm up to the IV bags with more anti nausea drugs and also the paraplatin. The needle barely hurt. The whole process took about one hour then the bags were empty. Two old elder men in the beds next to mine were talking about getting a few beers after the chemo. Seems like they are regulars at this place.

Back home I started to feel tired, so I took a little nap after a very rich lunch. When I woke up I started to feel a slight muscle pain, similar to flu symptoms. I was able to sleep nevertheless. Then it started… not the nausea, as it turns out they gave me enough of those anti nausea pills, but no one mentioned the constipation. I was never so full of shit. I could barely sit. My father got me some laxative. I stuck up 3 dosis of that stuff up my rear end and 2 dosis of the liquid version through the mouth. After 8 hours of tremendous asshole pain I finally was able to extract some junk.

They really could have warned me. Next time I will only eat vegetables and fruits.

At The Sperm Bank

admin — Sun, 30 Apr 2006 21:24:49 +0000

Sperm Banks. I was always curious about these places. The one I went to looked like this. “Would you like to watch some DVDs?” the nurse kindly asked me.

Visiting the sperm bank

They made me release my potential future babies into a plastic cup with my name on it. I needed the help of my girlfriend, the DVDs and the posters on the wall didnt really do it for me. I think I could offer them my pornography consulting services to create a more inspiring atmosphere in there. Although they probably don’t want the people to enjoy themselves too much, or else they’d be lining up around the block. So I guess it requires the right balance between hospital and porn. Tricky.

I called them a few hours later. Looks like I’m fertile. My boys can swimm!!!